I realized my biggest fear last night. I was kind of depressed, and something my aunt said came to mind.

This is pretty much how life is. Its really hard sometimes and it's f***ed up. But sometimes it will even out and reach some sort of equilibrium. You have to cherish those times. But you need to know, that we love you, no matter what.

My biggest fear is that she knows exactly what she's talking about. That life is just overwhelming depression. It became a counter for my reason for life.