only a drummer playing guitar

i used to really want to be a drummer, and play drums. but the other day, i was thinking about why i wanted to play drums so much and not guitar. it seems like maybe i wanted that because drummers are less expressive than a singer or other instrumentalist would be. in my head, i said, "i wanted to play drums because i was afraid of expressing myself. people don't care about what i have to say." i think i probably still feel this way, but have stopped caring as much maybe, but in this new endeavor to start a doo wop band, and write lyrics and sing harmonies, i find myself torn, and afraid. i listen to bands like the smiths, peter and the wolf, and voxtrot, and although each sometimes have their moments of cheese and lackluster, the music still really intimidates me. it burns a fire that i want to feed, and spread.

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